It's Time.

A few weeks back, I spent three days by myself going through papers, files, photos, journals, and old stuff I planned to read, study, do or make for the last twenty years.  I decided it was time to get real and to let all that stuff that had been hanging on — just go.   

It was time.  

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So I put everything I planned on keeping into a bin and everything I planned to discard in another four bins.  

I stood looking at the stuff I was getting rid of and decided it was a good idea to have a puja… a purification ceremony where I could bless where I’ve been, where I’ve walked, and in turn stand tall in what is most alive for me today. 

That was the 4th of July. 

And so, I took a shower, dressed myself up pretty, made myself a beautiful dinner, poured a kombucha in my best wine glass, and headed outside to start a fire.   I offered the first of my meal to the fire and to the power of transformation, and then, said a prayer of gratitude and turned my attention to my piles of stuff I was about to burn.  Paper by paper, life experience by life experience, dream by dream, I blessed, crumpled, and tossed what was no longer — into the fire.   

It was time.  And it felt incredibly liberating.

And now, dear ones, once again, it’s time . . . 

It’s time to share a few things.

I’ve danced around writing about the details of my personal life, because I don’t know what is pertinent or necessary, quite honestly. I am not sure what part of my life story can be of service to your life, so I’ll say just a little.  

The last two years have probably been the most difficult of my life.  I have gone through some of the greatest internal changes to date, and at times I didn’t know how to show up in my world, so I opted to remain silent.   For those who may not know, or have heard in the ethers, Larry and I ended our fifteen year marriage, and I signed the Yoga Farm over to him, where he continues to live and offer a beautiful retreat space for all sorts of healing to occur.   I will not speak for him, but from where I sit, we continue to be very close, loving, and I consider him and his family to be my own family.   I also feel that the Yoga Farm is one of the most beautiful gifts I have ever been given, having dreamed it and created it with heart and hands. I trust that what Larry and I built together will continue to serve others for ages into the future.   

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When we built the Yoga Farm, Larry suggested I sign the concrete platform before installing the front porch. 

I did just that.

But I didn’t sign my name, nor his. 

Instead, I inscribed, big as possible, “Love Lives Here”.   

And it did.  And it does.  And I have complete confidence that Love will continue to live on at the Yoga Farm.  

Because, well . . . when all is said and done, Love is all there is.     

I won’t say much more about the nitty gritty of my life at this point.   But I will say that what I have gone through, feels strangely like an initiation into my own soul, where all of the perfect plans I had made for myself slowly began to dissolve, regardless of what my mind wanted… and my soul began to whisper, and when I did not listen, began to speak more firmly to me, revealing a different sort of life path.   A path, that with the help of some tremendous teachers and mentors, has reminded me that the life I had been living was ready to be surrendered to the life that was wanting to be lived through me.   

And so, what I know now . . . is that . . . It’s time.

Despite the darkness I have walked through (that we eventually all walk through), I feel inspired, present, and committed to continuing to walk, however the Divine asks me to do so. 

On this day, I am living in a village in central Mexico, and I trust that I am being watched over and guided, every step that I take. I feel safe, peaceful, whole.  I can't ask for me.    

And I trust the signs.  I trust when things are easy and feel right, and this feels like both of those things.  My work is blooming in new ways and given that, I am deeply inspired to share the God-give work of Pilgrim in September, with much more depth and breadth than I had within me to offer in past years.  

I also have plans to return to teaching Sunday Satsangs in the Fall, with a little twist :: as they will be offered virtually, for easy access from the comfort of your own home, wherever you may live. 

But more on all that in coming days . . .    

For now, I leave you with three little things:  a song, and a prayer and promise:

The Song . . .   I trust you'll understand once  you listen... 

The Prayer . . .   for your well-being, your peace of mind, your health and clear-heartedness as you walk your own soul's path, may it be through the shadows or beneath bright open skies.

And the Promise . . .  the promise that I am here, once again . . . and I am so ready to love you and offer the best that I can in the way that I can for as long as I can ... as a servant leader of good ol' fashioned luv.  

Because, well . . .  It's time.

Sending you soooo much love wherever you may be today.  

Om. Amen.  A Ha.  

 

 

Britt B Steele

Britt B Steele, USA