The Courage To Face Myself

Sometimes I notice that when life gets difficult, I can get caught up in the difficulty of it all. Instead of watching it, seeing it as I would see a spiraling pool of water gently turning a fallen autumn leave for a while. It's when I breathe that I realized within myself that there always comes a time when the autumn leaf is released to the flow of the river, just as there is always a time where my "difficulty" breaks, and I feel the flow of life again.

This poem, reminds me of why I am given such "difficulties" along my way... These difficulties truly are my given opportunities to grow... if I can just.... stop.... to.... breathe......

The person who, being really on the Way, falls upon
hard times in the world, will not, as a consequence,
turn to that friend who offers her refuge and comfort
and encourages their old self to survive.
Rather, she will seek out someone who will faithfully and
inexorably help her to risk herself, so that she may endure
the difficulty and pass courageously through it.
Only to the extent that a person exposes herself over
and over again to annihilation, can that which is
indestructible be found within them.
In this daring lies the dignity and
the spirit of true awakening.

~ Karlfried van Durkheim